Monday blues,
Wednesday greens.

Yeah i'm green with envy, bud didn't go sch today.
Had a rough day yesterday.
shall not talk about it.

What does it feel like, to have no one to talk to when you're down.
It seems like everyone just want to make a joke out of you.
When misery's your best friend, when nothing goes your way.
What do you do?
certainly felt like dying and forgetting everyday.

People say that we all have family problems.
Of course, but have you thought that, it was only the trigger factor?
Have you really thought that i was fucked up because of one quarrel?
If yes, you should go die and save yourself from being stupid.
Bet you didn't queue up when god gave out brains.

Never be sure of something you know nothing of,
it would only seem like a cruel joke played on yourself.

I crave for help, trust, care.
But no one bothered, that's obvious because i am fucking useless.
I can't even do anything right.
Always having to seek for help.
Grades slipped, all the school did was scold.
Reach home, got the same shit.

Did you really did i wanted this?
Did you really think i chose this?
Who doesn't want to aces through exams and show off ?

Did you think i laughed at myself because i didn't care?
All i wanted was to make myself feel better.
Did you have to come and crash everything?
Are you so sure that we aren't aware of what we're doing?
We're not retards, we have eyes for a reason.

Then you say we're not doing anything about it?
Are you sure?
Yea , based on what you see in class, what results we get in the end is all that matters.
Attitude, is it really that easy to change?
Then why aren't everyone professors or geniuses already?
Do you think we enjoy being tormented every now and then.
I don't feel proud.

Try living in the live of a misfit.
Everyone just trying to condemn me , look down on me, get me on my knees.
But i'm not going down.
So you wish i would die.
Just so you could satisfy yourself.
IS THAT IT?

if that makes you feel any better.
Come, come kill me, i don't mind.
If life is such a misery, why do i bother living like a fucking dead.

I'm so fucking useless anyway, no one wants me, no one needs me.
No word of care, none.
Maybe i'm just someone to detest.
Everyone hates me.
No one cares whether i live or i die.
If thats the case, so be it.
I'll gladly live alone.

Anyway i'm used to it already.
16 years of misery, maybe its time to end it.

Looking at everyone around, have girlfriends care,
have boyfriends care, i realised i am actually nothing.

i think i have everything, in fact, i have nothing at all.
Nothing to call of my own.
this is just too pathetic.
If your life is like mine, feel free tell me.