i think i need to blog this out.
No one to fucking talk to.
zz
I don't like this feeling.
nevertheless it exists.
i don't know why i feel it.
i just do.
i can't describe this feeling.

fuck this.
i think its just
emptiness.

maybe i don't deserved to be loved.
maybe i don't have any friends.
maybe i'm not good enough.
maybe i'm just an entertainer
maybe i'm detestable.
maybe i'm a joke.
maybe i'm nothing to all of you.
maybe i look fine to you all.
maybe i overreacting.
maybe i just need that simple care and concern.
maybe i should die.
maybe i am no one.
maybe these are all facts.
maybe that aren't any maybe..

fuck this.
i don't like being alone.
i don't like being ignored.

i don't like to show my weak side.
i want to know how you all feel about me.
am i really not that good?
why do you have to be so cold.
why why why.
why the fuck am i even living.
i don't see the purpose anymore.

i don't know what i want anymore.
but i do know i don't want this feeling no more.
however its not going away.